A little sad

Looking at the last picture I just posted, it makes me a little sad. Due to some health complications, I had an ablation. Just look it up. It basically makes it so I can't have any more kids. The best part for me is no more periods. Sorry to much info. Anyways I knew I was done having kids. Gene has been fixed. I know makes him sound like a dog. So I knew we where done having kids. Then I had this done and it just finalized it for sure for sure. You know that feeling where I know I can't handle anymore kids. I knew we where done. I think it is just that finality of it all. Sorry just had to post this after seeing that cute little picture of Jesse and knowing I will never again experience that. Sad, glad, feeling a lose, feeling joy all at the same time.